A week ago tomorrow evening will be one week that I have been unemployed. Again. A lot of things that happened the first time and that happened this time have made me think about my life and how I want it’s future to shape up.
I want to be a writer because I have a story to share. Patricia C Wrede, the author of the Enchanted Forest Chronicles and Thirteenth Child, said something similar. That she had stories to share. For once it was comforting to read that I don’t have to BE a natural writer to write. It was always daunting to read how I had to eat, sleep and breathe writing to be one.
I eat, sleep and breathe a lot of things: writing, video games, internet marketing, beautiful website navigation, the dream of voice acting and a lot more… how can I do just one thing when there is so much I want to do?
In the week that I have been out of a job I had a lot of time to think on what I want to do, where I want to go. I do love internet marketing. I love watching traffic increase, and followers go up. I love the word play from the keyword research and the way I have to make titles and decriptions fit within so many characters. But, at times it infuriates me. In the end though, it will be my job as well as something I enjoy.
Writing on the other hand will be a hobby. A want. Something I need to do to get this story out of my head.
At the same time it makes me wonder if I should seriously contemplate using this ‘down time’ while I am searching for a job to make as much progress as I can on my novel. There is only so much that I can do once I send out my resume, social networking with near everyone and apply for unemployment. There is a lot of waiting, so I should make use of my ‘down time’…
I sent out the first five pages of my novel to my writing critique group and I had one member reply to my email. I was more than flattered by his comments which also propelled me to focus on my writing in my current situation. I am a good writer and it is good to hear; especially from someone that does not normally read science fiction/fantasy literature, let alone it being a mature young adult book.
As much as I want to I begin to write a new section and feel as if I get stuck. I tried an outline but that didn’t work the way I had hoped, or did writing different parts. The only hope I have, is like with everyting else, moving forward.
